Three O'eight. I was awake;
It might be better to say 'he,' second person, though it was me who was awake;
Dehydrated, maybe; and the clock that projected the time on the ceiling was …
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Three O'eight. I was awake;
It might be better to say 'he,' second person, though it was me who was awake;
Dehydrated, maybe; and the clock that projected the time on the ceiling was frozen.
Or time was.
"Three O'eight," the image said.
"Not there," she had said, earlier;
So he moved his hand completely.
The dream had gotten critical; they were about to find the people he had hidden;
He, the person through whose eyes I see;
"Black and white" she always tells me; men. "Only women dream in color."
"At least shades, if not colors" I have said, though I swear I've seen colors;
Muted, perhaps.
Pale.
Like a view from under water.
"We're trying to figure out things from our awake lives," I've heard;
Dreams.
Worries and images and memories crazy-mixed.
Good an explanation as any.
This time, there were cattle that needed tending. They were lying down, helpless.
We have no cattle.
It's a past-dream reference, the cattle, to one about pigs; hungry, dangerously so, in the barn.
Squealing, more like begging.
We have a barn; but we have no pigs.
If I look at our barn, I remember the pigs as if they were real
Before I remember they aren't.
I said to my (okay, first person) wife, in the dream, I'd take the truck and get some hay;
And I meant that; it was solid, solemn.
She just nodded.
We have no truck; not one that runs, anyway.
A stocky, shaggy, white horse came onto a porch we don't have.
"I'm getting hay," I said.
And then I was driving, not in a truck; in a car, very slowly on a street crowded with people;
Someone else was in the passenger seat. I looked past him, recognized my nephew, Dylan;
wanted to say "Hey, Dylan," but it was his brother, Carson, who looked into the passenger window;
At me; said, "Hey, Grandpa."
No.
Uncle. By marriage. "Gotta go."
Had to, and we, this other, non-specific person and I, had to move on,
Now we were hurrying up one side of wide, concrete stairs.
Exposed aggregate.
And it was all critical, dangerous, hurried;
And there was a panel on a landing, gray, on a gray wall;
And it opened; and we went in;
Whoever was behind us evidently closer.
There were others inside. Scared, backed-away by the opening of the panel.
Huddled.
"It's all right," I said.
But then I was, suddenly, outside and below that room;
With Them.
Them. Uniformed, shaded, backlit; scary people from some 1950s movie;
One that referenced the 40s, war; the one after the... I don't want to say 'hunger.'
Depression.
Black and white;
Grainy.
And one of Them, his face's features hidden by the shadow the brim of his hat dropped across it;
Standing at a sort of podium, had a...
Something like a round computer's mouse,
Sliding it over the horizontal screen;
GPS. On a table.
Beeping, lights flickering; zoning-in.
Tracking.
And he looked at me, knowing I knew what he wanted to know.
I knew the Others, those in the room, huddled, were in danger... not me, not the witness;
I was fine;
This time.
And I tried not to look toward them;
They, the man at the table, and the others behind him;
They were watching me.
Those people, those Others, were in such danger.
Beep, beep. Closer. I was ready to act.
I was moving my arm, my hand;
I didn't start that low moan that would rumble toward a scream;
One that has become that scream several times.
Not this time. I would act.
I saw color.
Red; projected on the ceiling.
6:11.
I told myself I'd remember.
Everything.
"Remember," my wife told me a moment ago,
"You have to..."
There are a million 'have to's.'
"Yeah, I know. I mean; yeah; I remember."
Some, not all.
"Maybe," I offer, opening the curtains, glancing toward the barn,
"Maybe, in dreams, things we turn away from otherwise... catch us."
"I'll feed the cats," she says, "When I wake up."